Day 26- Let That Sh*t Go!

It is time...to LET THAT SH*T GO!

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Transcript

Astrology And This Month

Six Journal Questions For Change

Health Reset And Sharing Joy Again

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Welcome to day 26 of our 30-day project. Today is the day that I can finally say with confidence that this entire 30-day project is wrapping up at the most beautiful time. All throughout this process, I have just been hoping, hoping, hoping that I would arrive at some place where this all felt worth it. And where I could say, wow, this really was something. So much trial and error, so many moments of like, what is happening in this world? How am I going to get through this? And at this point now, I can say unequivocally, there's been a shift. A huge, huge shift. And that's why this episode is called Let That Shit Go. Because it is time. Back a few years ago, when I was just knee deep in everything, wondering, you know, if I was ever going to be myself again, just feeling like me. I remember I posted on my podcast page, I posted this saying, and it started with, let that shit go, but then let that shit go was crossed out. And after that it said, be with that shit, deal with that shit, heal from that shit. And then when you're ready, let that shit go. If you don't follow astrology or don't believe in it, I don't know what to say, but I do. Uh I didn't used to actually. I used to kind of think it was just uh whatever. But Chani Nicholas really changed my whole viewpoint on it. And I've been following it, just kind of listening to her. And as I've followed through the years, I've realized that so much of what she's predicting, I started noticing how much truth there was. And I've really, really been looking forward to this month. I was a little scared because there was a lot in the forecast, which we have all been living through. But I was also excited because I knew that it sounded to me like this was going to be the month where we let that shit go. And I don't even care if it's psychosomatic or not, although I really don't think it is. But even if it is, I'll take it because I've let the shit go. So I'm hoping so many of you are on the same wavelength and you're feeling that shift in the air. So last Friday, April 17th, we had a very powerful new moon in Aries. And so the day before I knew about this, and I went to the beach and I wrote down answers to a bunch of questions that I had been given by an astrologer. But they were so helpful in kind of mapping out where I want to take this new energy and where I want to take things now that I've just like let go of all the baggage and crap weighing me down. So I want to share it with all of you so that you can do the same if you haven't already. Here are the questions that I brought to the beach with me and answered on paper. Number one, who am I willing to become? Number two, am I willing to outgrow the version of belonging that kept a hold of the old me? Number three, describe who I am becoming. Number four, name the wound or wounds that have been standing between me and myself. Number five, name the part of me that was exiled. Invite them back. Number six, plant the seed in the dark, not the version that's pretty, the version that is true. So there was a lot that I wrote down there, and you know, most of it isn't really relevant to this podcast, but two of the wounds that I've been working through for the past, I would say, seven years, one is the sisterhood wound. That has been very major, and I've made that very apparent on this podcast. And another is the visibility wound, and that is what made me retreat and leave social media, even though there was so much I enjoyed about it. And the same with this podcast. There was just too much coming in, and I wasn't at the point to handle all of that. I needed some healing and to let go of what people were projecting. It was way too vulnerable of the time to be in any spotlight. Like I am a turtle without a shell, I cannot be in this briar patch, this is too much, too much is coming at me. I've got to go sort my shit out, deal with it, heal it, and then let it go so I can come back and be visible again and not give a shit what anybody thinks or says about it. The sisterhood wound started with a lot of anger, turned into a lot of pain, a lot of confusion, back to anger, then sifting through, figuring it out, and now I'm like, I'm moving on. So, you know, now I'm becoming someone who sees people for who they are easily. I can see it in an instant. I'm going to live with an open heart anyway. The trust has to be earned, of course. I'm not open to everybody, but I am open to giving good people a chance again. I will never ever become so jaded that I just shut people out forever. It's just not who I am. And when it comes to the visibility wound, healed, good, I mean, nothing's ever completely healed, but healed enough to return. And I'm coming back to the self that had dreams and ambition and the person who wants to make a positive mark in the world. I am becoming someone who just braids creativity and joy into each of my days. If you have judgment on it, you are not invited, and that is it. No anger. But most of all, I am becoming a woman in her 50s who is free. I'm not completely free yet, but I am becoming more free each and every day. I'm dreaming, I'm expanding, I'm I'm planning travels, I'm taking photos, I'm opening my mind, I'm becoming more free, and I care less and less what anybody thinks about that every single day of my life. And it feels so fucking good. The part of me that was exiled is making a comeback. I am here to speak to you on this podcast. I have so many plans for the next season, and I'm excited. It's gonna be different, but the same. Different set of people that I'll be talking to, different kind of creative that I'll be speaking to, but I just cannot freaking wait. And I'm going to share it all. I don't care what anybody says, I don't care what they think. There's so, so many awesome people that I have been connected to through this podcast, and you are the only ones who matter. Anybody who's doing hate listening, that's okay. That's fine. They can do that and live in that world. I'm fine with it now. I'm just gonna do what I do and do what makes my heart sing. Clearing clutter, reorganizing, getting my body healthy and strong again after a pretty major surgery that I have not spoken about yet because it has to just really be its own episode. Um and just going after my dreams again. I'm done with the silence, I'm done with the listening, years and years and years of it. I'm ready to create and speak and share again. I'm also working on all of my travel photos that I've been taking for years and not sharing because I was thinking, oh gosh, it's like I'm bragging that I'm traveling to these places and I don't want to be. Who cares? That's not what it's about. It's my joy to take photos when I travel. It's my joy to share it. And I know that people love seeing that stuff. I love looking at people's travel photos. So, you know what? Fuck it all, dude. I'm back. I hope you're back. This is a great time. Maybe not in the world news, but hopefully you're feeling the shift. And I am so damn excited to be back here. It might be a slow start to get the next season going. I still have four more episodes of this 30 day project, but I'm back. I hope, hope, hope that whoever is listening to this is feeling what I'm talking about because we'll go on this thing together. I'll be back soon. And in the meantime, stay curious.